Everyone Should Be Bisexual! and oh no I have friends

((PLEASE NOTE :: Bisexuality has nothing to do with promiscuity. Do not call us sluts just because your jealous we can choose from 100% of the population. Choosing, as in ‘I like this person for a relationship’, not ‘I’m going to bonk this person just because I can’.))

Almost two years ago, I decided to start calling myself ‘bisexual’.

I have never had a crush on a girl, I have only had a few crushes on boys.

But, I am supportive of gay people, because it’s part of who they are and they can’t change it, and it can be damaging to themselves and people around them to try and change it.

Being in the closet sounds like a very sucky thing to go through.

Not only is it a sign of my support and open-mindedness, its also accepting the possibility that I might be gay.

I don’t know much about it, but my aunt was married, to a man, with children before she realised she was a lesbian.

She would’ve had to make this huge leap in her identity, going from a heterosexual, married woman, to a homosexual, single woman.

Atleast if you say your bi from the start, that you might be gay, it’s not such a huge leap.

I don’t want to put myself in this little box, this category, something that is definitive of me, and then for it to be broken completely, as opposed to just bended a little.

Although, it can be said that my aunt is bisexual – she was married to a man I assume she loved, and now she is the partner of a woman she loves (although now I think they’re moving to different states… oop)

Something a friend of mine just brought up, is that acknowledging a member of the same (or opposite) sex is handsome or beautiful doesn’t mean you are gay or that you are attracted to them.
I see lots of people, of both genders, and I can acknowledge that they are pretty, without being actually attracted to them.
Guys seem to have a lot of trouble admitting that another man may have good features – is this because men are more persecuted for being gay than women, because women have the whole ‘two girls kissing is hot’ thing going for them?

I feel kinda weird around my two new friends (both girls) every time I mention anything related to gayness, even as a joke.
On Facebook, the first time, one of them was like ‘sex ed is gay’ and I was like ‘it is if they are talking about gay sex lol’, and then I think the status got deleted.
And earlier I was talking about Halloween costumes to the other one and I was like
“I want to go as a female Joker. You could be Harley Quinn.”
and she didn’t know who Harley was, so I was like
“The Jokers side-kick/lover ;p lol maaaybe not”,
then when she didn’t reply I said
“*awkward silence* lol well you wouldn’t have to be MY lover xD jk jk you would :p (not really, I don’t swing that way…. much)”
And I still have no reply after hours, and I know she’s been online.

And it makes me feel kinda shitty, because I was completely joking, but more than that, if she is homophobic then I will feel like I can’t be friends with her any more.
I’m scared tomorrow I’ll wake up and none of them will talk to me or they would’ve deleted me.

*sigh* and this creepy guy is friends with their Dad, and I’m worried he’s going to try and say something about me or my family before we can say anything about him.