Halloween!

Australia doesn’t have it =(

I know, I know, ‘wtf’.

Well, we don’t NOT have Halloween, it’s on our calenders, its in our stores (albeit overwhelmed by Christmas trees), and there may be the occasional costumed trick or treater or deco’d house.
But, it’s just not very Australian, not very widely celebrated – the cities might go off, but I don’t think my town gets up to much fun… maybe a few delinquent kids being rowdy.

It doesn’t have the same imagery either – it’s Spring here.
No howling Autumn winds, crispy fallen leaves, swirling in orange and brown.
Just… green… some flowers… yeah.

I really want to dress up though!
I’ve been thinking of doing a female The Joker since last years Halloween – but I get kinda put out when I think I have no where to go and no one to hang out with anyway, lol.
But, I might do something with my friends (good news, I don’t think they’re homophobic :3), maybe have a spooky gathering of horror movies (I hate horror movies >.<)

I have some gross purple pants I got from an op shop, but I think I’ll ditch them and go for purple skinny jeans, or a (neither mini nor long) skirt.
Also, even though I love Heath Ledger and the darker Joker from The Dark Knight, I think it’d be funner to go for a more oldschool Joker, like from the comics and cartoons (which is kinda in between Heath Joker and Jack Joker – in style and feel not in time)
I need a toy gun that says ‘Bang!’ =D

So, to complete my outfit I’m thinking purple coat (hopefully tailcoat but will go for blazer or trench), orange shirt, green vest, green necktie, funky socks, black dress shoes or boots.
Hair will be curled and spray painted green (not real paint green, that stuff your supposed to put in your hair, lol), and I’ll need to get some red lipstick and something to whiten my face… hopefully real make-up, not face paint.

So, yeah… I probably won’t get this stuff together before Halloween, lol, but I hope I do.
Maybe I can get my parents to help pay for it as part of my birthday present – although I’m planning on uber opshopping so it shouldn’t be much.
I’m just kinda broke at the moment because I don’t have a job yet and I spent my money on lace gloves, a huge gold elephant necklace, and some stupid top that matches my gloves…. ^^;

I wish my male friend from America was here, or I were there, so that he could be a male Harley Quinn to match my Joker Girl *sigh* one day.

Everyone Should Be Bisexual! and oh no I have friends

((PLEASE NOTE :: Bisexuality has nothing to do with promiscuity. Do not call us sluts just because your jealous we can choose from 100% of the population. Choosing, as in ‘I like this person for a relationship’, not ‘I’m going to bonk this person just because I can’.))

Almost two years ago, I decided to start calling myself ‘bisexual’.

I have never had a crush on a girl, I have only had a few crushes on boys.

But, I am supportive of gay people, because it’s part of who they are and they can’t change it, and it can be damaging to themselves and people around them to try and change it.

Being in the closet sounds like a very sucky thing to go through.

Not only is it a sign of my support and open-mindedness, its also accepting the possibility that I might be gay.

I don’t know much about it, but my aunt was married, to a man, with children before she realised she was a lesbian.

She would’ve had to make this huge leap in her identity, going from a heterosexual, married woman, to a homosexual, single woman.

Atleast if you say your bi from the start, that you might be gay, it’s not such a huge leap.

I don’t want to put myself in this little box, this category, something that is definitive of me, and then for it to be broken completely, as opposed to just bended a little.

Although, it can be said that my aunt is bisexual – she was married to a man I assume she loved, and now she is the partner of a woman she loves (although now I think they’re moving to different states… oop)

Something a friend of mine just brought up, is that acknowledging a member of the same (or opposite) sex is handsome or beautiful doesn’t mean you are gay or that you are attracted to them.
I see lots of people, of both genders, and I can acknowledge that they are pretty, without being actually attracted to them.
Guys seem to have a lot of trouble admitting that another man may have good features – is this because men are more persecuted for being gay than women, because women have the whole ‘two girls kissing is hot’ thing going for them?

I feel kinda weird around my two new friends (both girls) every time I mention anything related to gayness, even as a joke.
On Facebook, the first time, one of them was like ‘sex ed is gay’ and I was like ‘it is if they are talking about gay sex lol’, and then I think the status got deleted.
And earlier I was talking about Halloween costumes to the other one and I was like
“I want to go as a female Joker. You could be Harley Quinn.”
and she didn’t know who Harley was, so I was like
“The Jokers side-kick/lover ;p lol maaaybe not”,
then when she didn’t reply I said
“*awkward silence* lol well you wouldn’t have to be MY lover xD jk jk you would :p (not really, I don’t swing that way…. much)”
And I still have no reply after hours, and I know she’s been online.

And it makes me feel kinda shitty, because I was completely joking, but more than that, if she is homophobic then I will feel like I can’t be friends with her any more.
I’m scared tomorrow I’ll wake up and none of them will talk to me or they would’ve deleted me.

*sigh* and this creepy guy is friends with their Dad, and I’m worried he’s going to try and say something about me or my family before we can say anything about him.