an excerpt from a private post

this is so like a diary post and i don’t know if it’s appropriate to make public comments about other people like this, even if it’s anonymous. i don’t think either of them know i even have a blog but if they ever were aware of it, if i ever shared a link, it wouldn’t be too hard to find.
i know people who did get fired for writing things about their bosses and co-workers… i don’t give a crap about my teachers (in fact i hate them more and more with every day i think of them) but i wouldn’t want to hurt my chances of getting in a musical… or employment i suppose.
i’ve probably said the same or worse about these people in the past though… maybe it’s time to delete this blog.

I just don’t even know AGAIN.

Mum keeps nagging me about using my blog.
Fair enough if its school or quilting stuff, but I don’t want my personal stuff on here anymore.
Whats the point of writing about things that upset me, or that I’ve already talked to my mother about (except for the fact shes tried of listening to me)?
Or maybe I want to put that on a different blog and make sure theres just one for school/quilting.
I really don’t know what to do or how to go about it.
Every diary I’ve had I’ve ripped into a million shreds because it’s a pointless black hole of alternating boring and depressing bullshit, why is this different?

I just went through my emails and my accounts on various things, made a new msn, so that when I am ready I can dive in.
I got sad looking through my YouTube account because I used to make music videos using movie clips, and upload them – my total video views are 1 million, I have over 100 subscribers, and while thats not much compared to actual popular people onYT, it made me feel a little proud.
I won’t use it, but I can’t delete it, and it’s existance makes starting again pointless.
I should atleast save some of my videos from the wrath of copyright infringement laws >>; but I’m a bit lazy, once again.

*sigh*

TO DO IN THE UNDETERMINED FUTURE :
post about heart blocks lap quilt
post about spa kit
post about depression
post about hour a day plan
post about sketching and other artwork

and something that causes me a little bit of worry : if I post pictures of my artwork, will some bugger with no taste knick them???